I love reactions, I used to love story telling. I would do that a lot. I’ve changed about 6 to 7 schools. There’s no just one day that you wake up and you’re like I want to be an actor. And I was academically quite inclined you know.. so to be an actor seems weird to admit to to myself. Because I don’t have anyone in my family who is an artist, just the vocabulary of being an actor didn’t exist. It was actually the threat of having to do post graduation that I was like no no no That’s it. Time out. In 1994, we were in Kashmir, my father was posted there. On one morning on the 17th of January, he was abducted by a group of terrorists. They kept him with them for a week and on the 7th day there was some sort of an ambush you know. I mean many things happened over a
period of these seven days. We were moved to Sri nagar. And on the 7th day we got news of his demise. I am very proud of how he lived his life. My father once told me that whatever scares you will eventually become your best teacher. Whatever you like you’ll learn nothing from. When I find myself in trouble, I know I will come out with a new lesson from this because we don’t learn from good times, we learn from bad times. But the real reason I know why I’m here today is because of my mother. She never brought us up in a way where self pity was an option or you know just dwell into why this happened to us. It happened, gather your life, keep your chin up and look ahead and do what you can do for yourself. The only way is the way forward, that’s all I know. I actually don’t have a take on feminism as I don’t think I understand the term very well. I haven’t sat up and thought about it. But what I do believe in is equality. I mean there are issues that disturb me once in while, when you read about domestic violence and what women have to go through, that is very disturbing. What I can do at my level I try doing. It’s great to see yourself in different hair and make up. It’s great to see yourself in different outfits, you know and what’s bad about staying healthy as long as I’m not killing myself over it. I’m not obsessive about my dress size I know I’m born a certain way, and I like my body, and I’m comfortable with it. I am happy to repeat shoes, I am happy repeating outfits. It doesn’t matter I don’t think we are in a place to legally dictate who should be in love with who. I was in New York. I don’t know if she was gay. I just got the vibe that she just wanted to have fun. She came up to me. She had this beautiful excotic accent and even more beautiful exotic eyes. She told me to come over to her apartment. She said “I’d like to paint you” and I was like oh ok, great. Then she said just you, nothing, nothing else just you. I was like just you.. just you. Nothing and then I was like 2+2 equals to trouble. Ugh. I was slowly shrinking. I said you know maybe another time. It is something I have tried. But something I don’t do party of my regular life. I have 2 cats on a cat nip and they turn the house upside down. that’s my way of chilling out and zoning out. I was actually a little bit intimidated before I met him, because you know you have an idea of someone in your head but, all of that dropped all in a second cause he was so easy. What I play is of someone who comes from a well. Riches to rags situation. She is someone who seems like a very strong and a fearless woman Someone who is not intimidated by a situation but is just a normal human being. It is a big turmoil from that perspective, it is a learning every time you go in front of the camera. Like right now is a learning in its own way.