Suicide Prevention Training: The Case of Maria

Suicide Prevention Training: The Case of Maria


– [Narrator] Maria Santos was arrested for felony possession, prostitution, and child endangerment. At the time of arrest, she
had her youngest daughter with her while buying crack. Since her arrest, she’s been working hard to recover from addiction
and get her life on track. Officer Watson has just
received a positive report from Maria’s counselor. – But your counselor says
you’re pretty worried about this hearing. – I don’t know, I’m just
kind of scared, I guess. – [Officer Watson] Are you
afraid of going to jail? – No, no, I’m not afraid
of doing the time. After what I’ve been
through on the streets, jail can’t be any worse. – What are you scared about? – My kids. If I go to jail, what’s
gonna happen to my babies? – If you go to jail,
and we don’t know that, CPS will keep them for a
little while in foster care. – But everyone says foster care is so bad, and what happens if I don’t get them? – Do you have any family
that can take them? – I don’t know. I think they asked my mom. She wanted to be their
mother; she might take them if she didn’t have to deal with me. (sighs) You know what? I should just let her have them. She’s right. Those kids would be better
off if I wasn’t around. – Maria, the last time I saw you, you seemed really optimistic
about making a change. But today you seem really down. – I’ve done a lot of bad things. And a lot of bad things
have happened to me. I’m so ashamed. – I know it’s rough out there. And I also know a lot of women like you who have changed their lives. – I don’t think that’s gonna happen to me. – Why not? – Because I don’t have the strength. I’ve messed everything up in my life, and I’ll probably mess this up too, so what is the point of even to try? – You’re attending the drug
treatment program, right? – Yeah. – And you’ve been going
to the women’s group at the mental health center, right? – Yeah. – How about the medication
the doctor prescribed for you, you’re taking that? – Pretty much, I try
to remember to take it, but I don’t like to,
you know, take medicines to feel normal. – You’re gonna have to take
those medications regularly. But all of these things look
really good to the court. – It’s not gonna change what I did. (sighs) I’ve been a really terrible mother. I was so selfish, I wasn’t thinking about my kids, and now
all I can think about is all the bad stuff I’ve done, and them. It was all about the crack and Carlos, and putting that before them, and… – The important thing is, is that you realize what you did wrong and you’re making some positive changes. – It was really hard to get clean. But, then I started to feel really good. But now I keep remembering the bad things. The things that happened,
the things I did. – I see that you’re really upset. – Even if I don’t go to jail, I probably won’t get my kids back. And if I do, I don’t know
if I can take care of them. So what good am I? – Maria, I’m starting to get
a little worried about you. Should I be worried about
what you’re gonna do? (sighs) – I don’t know. – I know you’re worried about the court, but all of these reports look really good. Just hang in there. In a couple of weeks, you’re gonna get passed this rough spot. – I don’t think I have that much time. – What do you mean? – Everybody would be
better off if I just died. – Maria, are you thinking
about harming yourself? Are you thinking about suicide? – I’ve thought about it once or twice, but everybody does sometimes. – But what about right now? Today? Are you feeling so bad
that you’re thinking about killing yourself? – I feel so bad, there’s
just so much pain. I’ve hurt so many people. I just want to die, and
I know that that’s a sin, but I’ve committed so many already… – Maria. – It’s too late for me. – Maria, I know you love your kids. And even though you’re
feeling hopeless right now, I know things can get better. I’ve seen a lot of women go through what you’re going through right now. What we need to do is get some
help with this right away. – What do you mean? – I think we should call your counselor, the doctor at mental health,
and get some more help. (scoffs) – If you do that, then the
judge is gonna think I’m crazy, and he’s gonna lock me
up, and I won’t be able to see my kids! – Maria, the children need
their mother to feel better and take care of herself. I can’t leave here until I’m
sure you’re gonna be safe. This is the right thing to do. And the courts are gonna see that too. – Are you sure? I don’t know, I just– I can’t think. – Listen. The one thing I am sure of, is that we need more help
to figure out what to do. So let’s make that call. We can all three talk, okay? – I don’t know, I guess. – Okay, let’s make that call now. – Yeah, okay, if you say so.

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