What is Psychotic Depression? | Kati Morton

What is Psychotic Depression? | Kati Morton


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  1. I've been Feeling like Ill mentally I feel something is taking over me and I feel like I need to take phycotic pills cause most of my day and nights I start to get breakdowns mentally and I even hullisinate or have dulisions I can't help being Depressed No matter how much I try to keep Fighting it one min I'm happy next I'm going to Scream and Damage Things or others it's been almost 14 years since I haven't snapped from before its hard to get out of bed to get dressed shower or anything I can't help it and when I'm around others I put a mask on it's not easy to ask for help my own mom doesn't see that my mental health doesn't exist but it really does I lost my mind mentally when I was being ticked and bothered

  2. My wife went through this 2 years ago. She's 100% better thank god she had an amazing doctor that knew it right away. It was incredibly rough but she made it through and back out the other side stronger than ever. If you are going through this or know someone is please hang in there and don't give up. I can promise it gets better.

  3. I just graduated and my dad bought me bare and wanted to celebrate. Didn’t feel like it meant anything so I really didn’t react & everyone was like “ you should be happy” but I’m thinking “ it doesn’t matter, everyone gets one. I didn’t work hard enough for it” basically..

  4. I'm really confused. I had a psychotic break as an autistic person. They told me I was being irrational and speaking weirdly but everything I was saying did make sense now that I think about it. It's just I used a lot of metaphors, analogies and technical terms which they were either unfamiliar with or just didn't go down the way I had intended.

    Initially I was only very briefly scared about what was happening to me and then I realised I've read and watched tones about mental illness and was able to self sooth. I was more scared when they forced me immediately onto medication and into psychiatric care.

    Psychosis for me was being really super excited because I felt like a glass ceiling had been smashed and everything that made me, me, was on display for me to look and modify at will. Medicating me, at the time, just shut this process down and for weeks after I felt like I'd fallen back into my old self, like some conveniently used soap dispenser that leaks constantly and no matter how hard I try to fix it, parts just keep falling off but somehow it still works.

    I've watched and read a lot about mental illness and nothing I experienced came close to whatever this is. It is like my neurons have started to connect up. I understand what makes me autistic now and it's like I can turn it on and off. What the hell has happened to me?

  5. Why does her left eye keep rising up out of her forehead while her right eye sinks down and into her face?

  6. I have PMD and my last bout of psychosis was in 2012, I will give anything to never experience it again, life is far from perfect but my meds do a good enough job thank you for such a concise and destigmatizing vid

  7. I think something that's really important with depression with psychotic features is how less prominent anosognosia is than in schizophrenia. It's kind of like, you know your delusions are wrong, like maybe you want them to be wrong, but at the same time you hate yourself for questioning your beliefs. It's like, I know demons aren't out to get me, but they are, and they're coming tonight, and I can't get help because the cops are in on it. But when I write it on paper or say it out loud, I know it's not true, and I know I'm sick. That mind set probably saved my life many times, and I got help.

  8. Getting a job has helped me too….I had lived off my retirement for about a year avoiding getting one because the last place I worked was toxic and a year before that my wife left and six months before that one of my students had died. I am healing and videos like these help so much. I apply a lot of what is suggested and then go with what works. I have been able to sleep normal time for the last week and a half straight.

  9. My mom had been struggling with macular problems for a few years. About a month ago she was diagnosed with Charles Bonnet syndrome, that alone is scary in and of itself, but my dads health has suddenly just gone down, literally overnight he lost the ability to walk and now is home on palliative care/hospice. So this has been about two weeks now. After seeing some very strange and behavior from her I took her to the dr the other day, so now on top of her other issues she was diagnosed with depressive psychosis. I’m at a loss, I help her the best I can. And even for the hallucinations that she knows are not real in that brief moment her fear is VERY real. I have weather related PTSD and I liken her fear to that! When the wind gets really bad I just panic, even tho I know the accident I witnessed 18 years ago (a tree branch was broken by wind and it fell on my then 14m old son) is not gonna happen again, in that moment it doesn’t matter the panic completely takes over. So in that sense I understand her feelings. I told her not to be scared to tell me when she ‘sees’ someone in the house and I will help her make them go away. Any other suggestions are welcome as well!

  10. Idk if I’m crazy… I always talk to myself like thinking I’m talking to someone… but I’m aware that I’m talking to no one…

  11. People think I have hallucinations or that I have psychosis but I don't. Never had never have had hallucinations! I just have depression & some anxiety.

  12. I just can’t be a normal happy, I look around at people and they look happy, maybe because they have their life together. I get stressed so easily by people and how they think about me, but I also kind of hate them. I can be a neutral very low happy or a very I don’t care about anything happy, and then I should just die kind of despair I shouldn’t of listened to meditation and hypnosis videos it made me into a complete idiot. I wanted to become more zen and it work but I also wasn’t motivated by anything. I just didn’t care. I feel so confused, I been taking too many melatonin and a natural anti anxiety over the counter meds. Now, I’m just more psychotic, more not in reality. I don’t know when this will stop if it would ever stop. It’s all because I became too easily overwhelmed and too full of social anxiety. I’m just easily manipulated, and I just care too much about what others think of me. My emotions are crazy I feel like a toddler that needs attention. Pieces of my old self slowly come back and it’s like they don’t understand what happened or how you could of screw up so badly. It’s just layers of a personality that you don’t actually need to survive show themselves, then I question to myself how much of me is me? My mind is shattered. My reality is shattered. Also, the one layer that just wants me to fail and die. Self sabotaging a way to get myself closer to the finish line.

    Solution: is the same as always, stop trusting my other layers to manage my own brain, even the positive layer or super ego layer this time with more empathy as always. I focus on the different parts of my brain in despair and then take them back. Maybe DID is a real condition. Good thing I’m able to bring myself out of it by focusing.

    The idea that you’re higher self or spiritual self will always heal your own brain is a lie. Imaginary friends or spirituality will not always lead to your salvation. It has a purpose sure but shouldn’t taking over or be the one running the show, our emotional selfs shouldn’t be running the show. Dat my lesson for today. Good bye now. Controversial, and then this is when people really hate me. Disregard everything I say because I brought up someone’s religion beliefs.

    Now, I just want to say that this stuff is true and factual because I’m really Neo from the Matrix. I figured out the human mind and no one else has ever figured this stuff out before me, you are welcome. I’m trying to boost my ego did I go too far?

  13. Why do we just stop enjoying things? It’s just strange. I move like I’m a mess all the time, sometimes I just can’t read out loud and other days I’m fine. I feel like I have a brain tumor, then that makes me feel more hopeless, that I shouldn’t try as hard anymore. I should just be a house plant.

  14. All I know is that…when I'm falling and failing to depression…I have to return to the simple. Be it focusing on how water feels on the skin in a shower, how the cool air of a breeze, how just being alive can be a pleasure with every breath. Let it all go and live in that moment. Finding a simple moment of enjoyment of living in that moment is what starts to fortify the foundations in my self. From that…be kind and slow and return to those simple things and start adding more. Treat yourself kindly and don't judge yourself harshly.
    I'm struggling right now. I have a wall of rage also that is…kept at bay and I haven't acted on. But I'll be fine. I just need to breathe and focus on the moment for a while.

  15. Kati Morton should be my counselor she is exactly right i have psychosis depression should i go to the emergency room ? ?

  16. My back clicks when i stretch and yawn, it hurts and it makes me sad… does that mean i am a psychopath?… probably got toxoplasma gondii too and that causes cysts to develop and grow on the synapses, dendrites, axons and other neuronal structures in the brains of innocent infant children and is transmitted through the spread of feline fecal matter, the SMRI study the link between the parasitic protozoan and behavorial symptoms similar to schizophrenia, and that… that is not at all! advantegeous to either a productive nor a successful life!, it is a child safety issue if i have ever seen it!… i bet you the whole shiny gleaming city of london england to one polluted derwent river mud brick that t. gondii is a major contributing factor to the onset of chronic depression!

  17. I'm at my wits end. I've struggled since at least the age of 15 and am nearly 44. Also am trying to care for my Mother who also had mental health issues and dementia . I was on meds for years and they didnt really help so I recently decided to discontinue therapy.

  18. Honestly, whenever the topic is "delusions" or "hallucinations" I always listen a bit harder, because the examples given, and the criteria by which we determine what is "real", just doesn't hold up. I feel like the process used to identify the actual basis of a given experience is today incredibly lacking and not at all reflecting the broader literature, or even having solid philosophical underpinnings.

    Example, quite literally all of the criteria of psychosis can be produced solely by microwave irradiation of the head, or stimulation of the brain with implants (which via nanotechnology, perhaps, can now be grown rather than surgically implanted). Maybe not all forms of all criteria, but the overarching thing itself. Even if a perception does in fact have no relation to some absolute material basis of reality, how do we determine where it's coming from? If someone is very set on an idea which is not accepted by others, to what lengths, and with what level of honesty, will it actually be investigated and systematically proven false? My guess is, on the whole, barely at all. We all know how the world really is, right?

    On the note of demons and electrical outlets, power frequency fields (as well as higher frequency transients and harmonics) are in fact biologically active, there are many structures in the body capable of transduction and amplification of any information in such a field. A more tangible example is in people with melanin in their iris, if there is any ambient light, even very dim red light, power frequency fields will couple to the retina, act on the channel which controls melatonin synthesis in the pineal, and suppress it accordingly. This effect was absent in albino mice. Could it be that, by some means, the individual has an awareness that they are being acted upon by some agent and its general direction, this leads them to the wiring in their walls? It was well noted in Poland, Czechoslovakia, and the USSR that workers around microwaves could learn to detect irradiation, its general direction, and certain frequency, modulation, power density attributes. I simply do not buy the idea that outlets are associated with energy and are common openings in the walls (that look like faces), and this is solely where the idea comes from. Outlets as a target seem somewhat common. The woodpecker signal being picked up by power lines is also an interesting idea.

    Not a comment on your video directly, most people in their entire lives would never have cause to investigate the effects of electricity and magnetism on organisms, but it is a growing disturbing reality that there is a vast difference between what is true, what is possible today, what is right in the literature for the last 100 years, and what the majority of people know and believe. More disturbing still, what people say they think is something quite apart from their actual, ultimate behavior. A very bad place to be, one that inspires little security or trust.

    Though actually I suspect schizophrenia stems from dysfunction of the digestive system, and long term conditioning via repeated childhood trauma. But. Microwaves will do the job too. Medication should be avoided and used as a last line. The individual should first try fasting, with filtered water. Possibly vitamin C (as sodium ascorbate) and minerals to protect the liver from whatever may have accumulated in their body. NAC to downregulate muscular autolysis, potentially. I recently fasted for 6 days and would have gone longer, it's not really a big deal and, along with looking for mechanical problems with the spine or what have you, should be a first line before putting more junk and disruption in the body. Why look at the spine? Just look at what stimulation of the cranial nerves, especially vagus and trigeminal, can do to brain function. Compression of blood vessels, inhibited CSF circulation, tugging on the brain stem in some cases. Can't hurt, generally.

  19. It’s only happened 3 times, first time it happened was my ultimate breakdown. It lasted a week where I had vivid delusions that a zombie was following me and watching me everywhere I went as well as thinking things were watching me from the vents and thinking that if I looked in the mirror, my reflection would possess me. That time I needed to be inpatient for a couple days and take antipsychotic medication for a few months to get me through my dark time. The other 2 times only lasted a few hours. One where I thought a ghost girl was sitting on my couch and another where I thought a faceless alien was peaking around the corners. Luckily it’s only happened 3 times in 6 years always decreasing in duration and severity because I’m recovering dramatically from my depression and minimizing my general life stressors.

  20. Fuck now know im a severely depressed very borderline personality disorder type and yikes ive bin at the end of my rope for my hole life so far i really hate medication and doctors i just wish i was normal and i wish i could trust other people especially other doctors i dont even know how to go about getting help anymore all my failed attempts in the past have really made it some kind elephant in the room that i cant deal with anymore do you have any advice for me like for example i always lie to myself and convince myself that i can help myself and i dont need some doctors help with something that i can probably figure out better myself but thats as far as it ever goes my fucked up self uses that only tp get me tp bail out of the mental clinic or the hospital and then go back to all my negative suicidal self destructive habits again until i break down again witch is happening more and more frequently to these days.

  21. I hate playing the i need help card so bad that ill do and say anything to convince the doc that im good to go and regret it later every time who the hell can you trust in the world when you cant even trust yourself tp help you out

  22. My major depressive disorder turns psychotic when I'm under a lot of stress. I start hearing things I really don't want to. But when this happens and I realize they aren't real I know its a warning to call my doctor and get my stress levels under control.

  23. Why is it that if you are AWARE that you are psychotic, the doctors suddenly rule out a psychotic diagnosis? I have psychosis diagnosed as a medical condition ?? when i know for a fact i habe schizoaffective disorder from psychotic mania lasting months followed by months of depression with psychosis present ALWAYS.

  24. thank you so much for this video. i had a psychotic episode while depressed in july and was so confused and scared. i was in the hospital for a week and since then ive been doing great – havent had another since. thank you for normalizing this. i didn't realize that it was common – i thought it only happened to people with schizophrenia.

  25. I love Kati’s work, quality stuff, but.. 6:16 ? I was an inpatient once and a nurse said much the same thing. I said then what am I doing on the psychiatric ward?! If I wasn’t crazy it would have meant MI5 really was….? “Crazy” is a treatable condition, not a character flaw!! In my experience if a sufferer is asking if they’re crazy it’s because they’re getting glimpses of precious insight, and saying they’re not is like squashing that with unintentional gaslighting. Try saying yes, it’s just temporary, let’s get you some help with that.

  26. I wonder if I have had this. When I have gotten really depressed there is a point where I begin believing there is a conspiracy of people trying to keep us here (on earth/alive) and that everyone who presents as happy is either faking it because that is the mechanism of trying to convince us to stay, or they may very well be depressed but don’t want to be accused of not being part of the conspiracy. Even the smiles or laughs I do see become distorted in the sense that it seems hyper-exaggerated acting that I wonder if it’s real. I also get confused and wonder if I’ve ever felt that, was I basically tricked into being part of the conspiracy before, or was I genuinely happy? There’s a point where I feel myself on the edges of this live world and the other, and it is hard to convince myself to stay. The only reason I’m not sure is it all seems a bit too self-aware. Like I question my theory, and my understanding is that usually people with delusions it’s so fixed that they don’t even question it, it’s just a part of their fabric of their thoughts. (My depression is fine right now, last noteworthy bout was maybe 2 years ago)

  27. at 1:47 2 or more of the following i have a poor appetite, trouble sleeping/insomnia, low energy, low self-esteem, poor concentration and feeling hopelessness all but one yay and i get up every day look happy on the outside but not on the inside and i don't like to socialize, i am always tired, struggle to concentrate, zone out but i don't know how to get help i can't even try i don't trust people with it can i have advise and i don't want to tell my parents or teachers or friends and i am to shy to speak up and i don't know how to tell because i am 13 my parents will have to know and will be tould about it and i am in year 7 felt like this from year 5 but the eating thing only recently and small parts in the past please give me advice and i have thought of self-harm before but never done it the closest I have gotten was running a knife along my arm gently them put it away for my brother was home

  28. You have great videos. I've been diagnosed with major depression many times throughout my life. I'd love to listen to what you're saying, but when I'm depressed, I can't handle fast speech. I mean no offense, but you speak so quickly that it makes me feel frayed and chaotic.

  29. I was Diagnosed with MDD in 2017, and when I changed doctors they didnt get any info on me and literally refused mental help, and gave me vitamin d vitamins for my hair loss and 'low mood'

  30. I have psychotic depression. I have episodes where it's like no matter how much of my antipsychotics I take I still have delusions and hallucinations.

  31. Kati Morton
    : " Blessings " You humans sure have a lot of Problems ! This is why I stay away from you –
    But – Try an Have A Nice Day Anyway !

  32. I wasn’t diagnosed I don’t think so (I actually don’t know because at the time unfortunately only my parents got to catch up with the doctor after getting my psychiatric appointments…) but I’m pretty much convinced I had a psychotic break 6 years ago when I was about 14, I was very very ill at the time with bad anxiety/flashbacks/panic attacks because I was so depressed and suicidal. I can swear I was very delusional and every delusion was related to killing myself like me deserving to die and being the worst person alive/being above everyone and being too good for the pain I was in, turning every situation to a possible suicidal opportunity and etc. I also hallucinated bugs and sounds, I could swear people were talking about me or being after me for acting insane when they actually was just chatting. for the outside eye I’m pretty sure I was looking pretty much like how I’m acting when I’m dissociating (being very much quiet and confused) but I remember snapping at people for doing nothing because I was so confused.. it was awful but I’m glad I had experienced a psychotic break when I was a child, looking back I can learn so much about myself.

  33. I struggle with BPD and Major Depression.. had a bad psychotic break a month ago, and I'm still in denial about it. I guess I don't know how to feel. I keep trying to fix myself and keep myself safe, but it doesn't always feel that way. This helped, thank you.

  34. Psychosis is the worst, missed 4 months of work in 2010 due to what they described as a "psychotic breakdown". I was a mess. No showering, I grew a long, disgusting beard, saw things and I didnt know if those things were real or not…..funny thing is, I was flooded with medication when I wasnt feeling well and I suspect that is the reason I got so bad. So I weaned myself off all meds by earlier 2011. I still have crazy moods, dont really know day to day how I will feel, but that is better then being stuck in a dark place because meds kept me there. Always heed caution with psych meds…..they're not good.

  35. The video is good and she’s intelligent but I disagree that treatment is available, even if you have money you’ll be sedated

  36. Yah are govn done stuff that got a few depressed. Lost of job the loved w everything. Why for the govn gain. Lots of Stuff. Thanks

  37. You do a great job at making me feel a little less phycotic, and it is up to me to get the help. My entire life is circling around pushing myself to see and honestly talk to a Dr. I gotta get it done

  38. I think many of us are bogged down from our own perceptions of our selves and preconceptions of what right/wrong or good/bad is. My life has been totally steered by fear of myself, and delusions of what everyone else thinks. But my instinctual self knows these ways of thinking are merely static compared to the big picture itself. I may have these disorders, but I refuse to let the guilt from that totally dominate me. I've never been one to give up without a big ass fight, and that stubbornness will work for me instead of against me in this case.

  39. I've struggled with major depressive disorder for my entire life. It is not until recently that I have started having psychotic features. I am on Prozac now but it only helps a little. I was depressed as a kid. For a long time I chose not to get help because of the stigma around mental illness. Well I have come to the conclusion that those that view mental illness as something that is not real can piss off. I hate living like this but I know there is hope. My psychiatrist has been very good to me. I hate to be trapped in my own head though. It is a very big, dark place.

  40. You may think you're clever by loading your arguement, to get me to willingly give up my liberty and seek hospitalized treatment, with egocentric motivations for, "betterness, ", but the fact of the matter is that I still think your putting up an act in an attempt to manipulate my behavior to your own ends which includes putting me on medication. I don't know if I'm ok with that ?‍♂️

  41. There is no cure for psychosis. Drugs are used to try to alter or subdo a patient's mental state, but its a common factor that patients choose to take their medications however they wish and whenever they wish; if they take their meds at all. Schizophrenia is an invasion of the psyche that has been linked to families with genetic propensity toward mental illness, trauma in the womb during maternal pregnancy, abuse/usage of recreational drugs, can all bring it on in those that already have a propensity toward mental illness. Its a fight to get them to take their meds properly, and Its heartbreaking for the family and friends who love them. It gets worse over time. Though science doesn't appear to recognize certain spiritual effects of severe mental illnesses, demonic possession has been a fitting assumption with some.

  42. I'm fighting depression and it's been getting worse. This video made me cry because I feel like I truly am beginning to go crazy there's been so many traumatic events in my life the past few months that everything is just overwhelming me. I wake up crying and shaking. Thinking I have no friends, nobody cares for me, or I'm alone, even if I'm in a crowded room. I feel like whatever I do, or whatever anyone else says, its fake and the truth is just that everyone doesn't wanna be around me. And it hurts so so much. But doctors… I can't afford it. I truly can't. But I really feel useless in my life. This helped me understand. That I'm not alone. Feeling the way I do. I wish nobody had to feel this way.

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